a mass shooting, when you read
the names of the dead, you don’t expect
to know anyone. You don't expect
to wither into a shock of knowing,
your words to wither into the heart-shaped
emptiness of condolences. And you are
surprised by your anger at conspiracy theories
that feast on day-old death as it were bacteria
on a corpse, brown-rot on a piece of fruit—
the coverup, the motives. And where is there
to hide if your private connection becomes
a public debate, and questions pervert your
mourning, filling it with voices and doubt, until
your loss is corrupted into another story
that conceals what no one dares speak?